Shop Mobile More Submit  Join Login
About Deviant ᘛ♔ Queen Sami ♔ᘚ20/Female/Unknown Group :iconwingupuffacademy: WingupuffAcademy
 
Recent Activity
Deviant for 7 Years
Needs Core Membership
Statistics 432 Deviations 115,601 Comments 46,525 Pageviews
×

Donate

Melanthriel has started a donation pool!
30 / 525,600
:iconleftlacedivplz::iconcoalbowdivplz::iconbluebowdivplz::iconsnowbowdivplz::iconbluebowdivplz::iconcoalbowdivplz::iconrightlacedivplz:


Donate points to me, for whatever reason. I'll have my Art Status stated up above, so that you'll always know what's open or closed!

What I really want though, is for the points to be reused for others here on deviantART rather than for myself. ❤



:iconleftlacedivplz::iconcoalbowdivplz::iconbluebowdivplz::iconsnowbowdivplz::iconbluebowdivplz::iconcoalbowdivplz::iconrightlacedivplz:

You must be logged in to donate.
:iconmerearthling::iconmerearthling:
:iconhrtlacebludivlplz::iconhrtlacebludivplz::iconhrtlacebludivplz::iconhrtlacebludivplz::iconhrtlacebludivplz::iconhrtlacebludivplz::iconhrtlacebludivplz::iconhrtlacebludivplz::iconhrtlacebludivplz::iconhrtlacebludivrplz:

:iconblackrose-1::iconblackrose-2::iconblackrose-3::iconblackrose-4::iconblackrose-4::iconblackrose-4::iconblackrose-5::iconblackrose-6::iconblackrose-7x:
.-+*^|| Journal Entry: 8th of January, 2016 ||^*+-.
:iconblackrose-1::iconblackrose-2::iconblackrose-3::iconblackrose-4::iconblackrose-4::iconblackrose-4::iconblackrose-5::iconblackrose-6::iconblackrose-7x:
:iconleftlacedivplz::iconcoalbowdivplz::iconbluebowdivplz::iconsnowbowdivplz::iconbluebowdivplz::iconcoalbowdivplz::iconrightlacedivplz:

So, I haven't posted a journal since that last one in early December, oops. I managed to not get the things I planned for the holidays done, but, ah... that's just how things go, I guess.

College officially resumes on Monday, the 11th. I'm not ready for it in the least. Luckily, however, I'll have things relatively easy until mid-March. Until then, I've only got to finish up the two incomplete courses from last semester. So, I shouldn't struggle too much. Just finishing up. Yeah. Although, my Public Speaking class has me intimidated as hell. Anxiety and all. Eck. My professor is really nice though and he's worked with me last semester to help out and I only have to present in front of him only. Which is better than presenting in front of the class. It's still really anxiety-inducing just to think about giving a speech (I've got two or three to do, I believe), but... I'm trying not to get overwhelmed.

I'm really struggling with my depression and anxiety these past few weeks. Especially my depression. Freaking relapses. Along with physical issues. It's been really rough, and I'm really worn out and in a state where it's easy for me to become overwhelmed. Or rather I'm constantly overwhelmed. I guess it's like the way that something that's really sore becomes ridiculously oversensitive to things? I need a break to rest and recuperate but nah, got college to deal with. Ugh. I'm REALLY not emotionally/mentally ready for this. It sucks.

Also yesterday marked the first anniversary of my grandmother's death ahahaha I was in quite a bad place yesterday when the realization sank in. I'm still feeling the grief. I miss her. But, well, at least no more suffering for her, right? Yeah...

:iconstardivider1plz::iconstardivider2plz::iconstardivider2plz::iconstardivider2plz::iconstardivider2plz::iconstardivider2plz::iconstardivider2plz::iconstardivider3plz:

Oh and I'm trying to take my art even more seriously but like... With my current mental state it's difficult as hell. Feeling hopeless, feeling like my art sucks, feeling like I'll never be good enough, feeling that I'll never be noticed, feeling that it's pointless for me to try... It's so rough right now. Not to mention the physical pains.

I'm trying so hard but I keep breaking down and hating my art and so on. Thexevilxwulfy is trying to help me keep my morale and hope but trust me I know he struggles with how often and easily I break and lack confidence and hope. Still, I hope to be active this year and to get at least partway where I want to be with my art. Journey of a thousand miles starts with the first step right? Aha...

So, I hope everyone's well and that 2016 has had a good start for you guys.
I'll get to my messages when my mind is clearer.

:iconstardivider1plz::iconstardivider2plz::iconstardivider2plz::iconstardivider2plz::iconstardivider2plz::iconstardivider2plz::iconstardivider2plz::iconstardivider3plz:
HeartHeartHeart
:iconmelanthriel::iconthexevilxwulfy:
HeartHeartHeart
:iconblackrose-1::iconblackrose-2::iconblackrose-3::iconblackrose-4::iconblackrose-4::iconblackrose-4::iconblackrose-5::iconblackrose-6::iconblackrose-7x:
.-+*^|| Journal Entry: End ||^*+-.
:iconblackrose-1::iconblackrose-2::iconblackrose-3::iconblackrose-4::iconblackrose-4::iconblackrose-4::iconblackrose-5::iconblackrose-6::iconblackrose-7x:

:iconhrtlacebludivlplz::iconhrtlacebludivplz::iconhrtlacebludivplz::iconhrtlacebludivplz::iconhrtlacebludivplz::iconhrtlacebludivplz::iconhrtlacebludivplz::iconhrtlacebludivplz::iconhrtlacebludivplz::iconhrtlacebludivrplz:

AdCast - Ads from the Community

×

Comments


Add a Comment:
 
:icondamaimikaz:
DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for adding So emo to your collections. I'm happy that you like the piece :la:
Reply
:iconopeye:
Opeye Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2016  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you for the llama! 8')
Reply
:iconinsidemymind18:
Insidemymind18 Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
thanks for the llama :D
Reply
:iconlady-starbind:
Lady-Starbind Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
thanks for the llama
Reply
(1 Reply)
:iconcracklethepop:
CrackleThePop Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Who
what
uh
thanks for the llama

i think.
yeah, thanks for the llama.
Reply
(1 Reply)
Add a Comment: