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Anonymous:iconyowyez::iconsopecartoons::iconmerearthling::icondrawingblue::iconclaudiarovito::iconrrjones::iconmerearthling:
yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh ok.

lol so i wanted to break the cycle of my inactivity but apparently im still a stupid dreamer as always.

things are reverting back to stage 0
i really didnt think itd end so quickly.
i actually got my hopes up that i could really return and draw and everything
be active on here and tumblr and wherever else
draw and play video games and whatever else i used to enjoy doing
etc
i really thought i could come back.
i believed it wholeheartedly.

but apparently i was wrong as usual.

ive had tobe really pushing it these days just to come online at all  much less do anything
and now it feels like i really cant do anything at all
my minds shutting back up from everything and im trying hard to not sink back but it seems like im fighting a losing battle.
hah.
losing battle...ive always been fighting those. hah.

my health is just absolute crap. mental health and physical health, what the hell ever. but the mental health is worse i guess.

either way theres just so much going on that like even if i solve one thing there are a multitude of others that arent
so much stress, so much pain, everything.

lol my threshold is seriously getting lower and lower each time...hah.
frustrated doesnt even cut the tip of the iceberg in describing how i feel.

either way im really sorry.
im still going to be trying my hardest to not sink back into complete absence, but dont be surprised if i do.

...i really hate this.
i absolutely freaking detest this.
words cant describe it.

i just want to do what i want to do, damn it, not be withdrawn into a freaking shell of no positive emotions and be unable to do scratch and be unable to interact with anyone in any form and whatever else...

i want to be me again. i want to put a stop to this stupid cycle thats worsening rapidly. but yeah apparently the reality is that theres not much i can do or control.
tch...

im really sorry...

i know ill be fine again, but now i worry about how long ill be fine for, instead of whether or not ill be fine... since its for less and less time with each occurrence... especially with how damned short this lasted... i mean...what...hardly 21 days? seriously? when i was gone for around 61 days? ive only been back for barely a third of how long i was completely absent for, during which ive truly done almost nothing, and im already pretty much gone again?

i...i just cant take this.
this is absolute crap.

and im sorry.
you guys take care of yourselves and i really hope none of you ever feel the way i do. seriously.

Should I dare to post animal art as well? 

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9 deviants said Yes, sure, why not, I like anything you draw anyways, so you don't need to worry about silly things like this. Draw whatever the heck you want! ((PFFT but, but, omg... I can't help it... orz))
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4 deviants said Yes, you should -- DUDE, COME ON, YOU HAD NO PROBLEM WITH THIS IN BEFORE 2011. YOU DID USED TO POST ANIMAL ART BEFORE. ((I KNOW, I'M SORRY OTL))
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2 deviants said I'm not confident in my prowess there at all, pft, it looks horrid to me, sorry, so I'm so unsure... asdfg
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No deviants said Maybe hold off until you gain more confidence? ((I've been holding off on that basis since 2011... pffff orz))
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No deviants said No, I prefer to see what you already normally post. ((Humans/Humanoids/Anthromorphic))

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Mark-Heather Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2014
Thanks for the fav! :)
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DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks a lot for adding my work to your collection
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LadyAdkala Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks For The Llama Emote 
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Haseoblack Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2014
thank you for the faves!
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luneu Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2014
Thank you so much for the fave and the watch! I really appreciate it and hope you have a lovely day.  
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